well,it has been a long period evr since i started posting.
weeeks or maybe a month?
but im sure tat this post is gonna turn out to be one filled with negative thoughts and blah blah.
i seriously dunno what on earth is wrong with me these days.
but one thing im sure is,im gradually losing the faith,the courage,the strength to move on with my life.

i have been doing some random thinking these days.
results,family,feelings and most imptly my life.
i question my purpose of life.why am i here for?
am i here just to do things tat impress others?or am i here to lead my own life?
or maybe,i would just ask,why am i here in the first place?
i hate my existence in this world.
why must life turn out to be so tiring,so competitive,that im seriously against it?
it may be my mindset thats adding to the problem.
but i cant help feeling this way.
im TRYING HARD to control.im seriously trying..
but its difficult to put up a brave front,a smile, just to convince others that im perfectly fine.
it's a terrible feeling when your pillow gets soaked with tears evry night..
SIGHSSS.

i face setbacks and disappointment every now and then.
you may say that this is part and parcel of life.
it is the experience tat you gain from the journey...
but,such setbacks are just merely draining away my energy
whenever im determined to do something,somehow or someway,no results are shown.
and instead,i face with more failures.
my life's entirely SCREWEDD.
what's left is just hatred,disappointment and nothing more.


pull me back-

BREAK FREE;
[a] 1:27 AM