lol it's amazing when i look back on my previous posts.
seems to be bringing back lots of memories which are long forgotten and also some which happened to be etched in my mind till now.
strange feeling.strange posts that seem so strange and distant.
as though im reading about someone's life?
and im ashamed to say that i gave up reading my 2006's reflection.
full of crap and too emo-.- HAH.

as for 2007,im just too busy worrying about the olvl results and so on.
spent the first half of this yr with much hatred,regrets,guilt and fear.
dramtic year,i must say.
lots of things happened,unexpected ones.
there's just too much to say..and i can't simply put them into words.
overwhlemed with the will to excel,to do better than others..which i know that it isnt doing me any good.
i din change in anyway i guess,in terms of academics.
always aiming for the best and giving myself unnecessary stress.
how many times ive told myself to change
how many times ive tried to convince myself that results aint the only thing that determines evrythg in my life
but,sad to say,results had full control of my life.and i predict,it's gonna be in future too.
i hate it when im green with envy whenever someone does better than me.

dealing with relationships..ive changed.in fact,to an extent that sometimes,i had to take a good look at myself asking.what have i become?
immuned?irritated?or cant be bothered?or maybe dun wish to bother so as to prevent myself from dwelling too much into it?
i don't know.i can't tell if things are getting better or worse.
we're not as one anymore.in fact,it seems as though we're strangers on the table during tat fateful night when we had dinner.
i cant tell if its better this way or..i'd rather return to the past when evrythg's complete but again,not exactly complete.
either one,there's always something missing.
im again,ashamed and guilty to say..i think i'm happier this way.
i wish you won't take a step further and screw up his entire life.
that's what i truly wish for.please.
i don't have the guts to plead you as im clearly aware that tears will surely fall.
i just hope that you're able to listen to my thoughts and figure out what i'm longing for.
not to be as one..but at least,appearing to be as one.

well..im getting so emo again.
i'm hoping 2009 will be a fruitful year ahead cos i figured 2008 isnt one.lol.
hope the A's will be okay.not like the O's.[A's sounds better so maybe i'll do better?(:]
i swear i'll place studies as my first priority and not disappoint the people around me.
i won't continue ignoring my mum's advices and let her down.
2009 will be great with my new house and hopefully,a new life(:


i'll never forget the kind of support you've given me throught this year.
ups and downs we've been through.
we'll pull through this tough year together.
make it a memorable one ya?
hee(:

BREAK FREE;
[a] 11:42 PM