ehh i have no intentions of reviving this blog.
in fact,no intentions to let anyone see this post?
arhh no one's looking at this dead blog anyway.
well..everything's not been turning out well ever since i went off mugging for o's.
screw tat damn geog ppr which made me screw the entire o's.
or maybe i shant put the entire blame on tat ppr but jus on my own mentality?
it was me who wasnt strong enough back then.
yah,im solely to be blamed.
one wrong decision and move which led to more regrets.
firstly,i screwed up my o's and yes,definitely,my results.
and guess wat?i had an a1 for humans! hah how ironic.
how much tears ive shed back then..it was jus dumbb.
then wat,my confidence level dropped and i screwed my tests in mjc.
and now,posted to mjc but not being able to get into 4h2.
never did i expect myself to end up in such a state.
a state such tat i have to actually appeal into sumthg tat i wanted.
ive been telling ppl around me tat its rather pointless to appeal into a jc when u dun even qualify for it.
but wat am i doing here?appealing for a subj combi which i cant even qualify for.
the pride and confidence which i once had was momentarily shattered.
it was the countless hard work tat ive put in and the successes tat i had in return which once convinced me tat hard work does pay off.
it was those successes which convinced me tat i am above the rest and i do have the capability to do well.
but now,i guess..im wrong after all?
i aint smart,but jus an ordinary mugger.
im probably nothing as compared to the rest hu has the intelligence?lol.
its hard not to compete after all these yrs when ive been doing so..
but i shall try to put off this mindset and start on a new jc life.
even if i din manage to get into the subj combi tat i want..i shall just think on the positive side?
maybe less stress and work to cope with?
and perhaps i can have more leisure time?
well,i shall just let it be and get on with life.

*praying - im just hoping tat things will turn for the better.

content to be simply myself;
neither comparing nor competing.
my ultimate goal/

BREAK FREE;
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